hello from ness

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Here's a little hello from me. 

The name's ness, she's 22 at the moment, terribly in need of a new job and is the type of person who changes her phone time to 24-hour to get the attention of a boy (but also why the hell am I talking in third person? and why does it feel more comfortable? who knows)

I like to write, i've written a lot of shit in my short life. From shadow writing a biography for my grandfather before his dementia started kicking in to lyrics for my short lived band career all the way to calling it apart of my job description by using fancy words to sell creative industry tertiary education to the poorest bunch of kids.

I've been talking way too much my whole life, to the point where my jaw is clenched and has started cracking on a daily basis in need of regular acupuncture appts. so instead of writing to no one and giving myself the opportunity to edit my feelings as i look back on old work, we are publishing live on the internet so i can't take anything back - also so I can practice.

Hopefully this year is about growing and getting a little better at the things i love so we're starting on a 2021 high. There's a high probability no one is reading these but if you are, hello! welcome! come back soon! have your say on the blog and beyond

Much love xx


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