reviewing the personal year number 2

i've always had quite the fascination with tarot readers and psychics alike, someone who holds in their palm a collection of tokens that speak to a past, present and future that exists in "what ifs" and "maybes".

such a practice that encourages overthinking of mundane situations and reevaluating of memories supposedly set in stone, it's a wonder why the most anxious person in my own periphery continues to hold onto these nonsense practices like a religion. alas, there's something I just can't let go of about all the possibilities that someone with a scale of answers can possess and share when the right question is asked.

finding what lies beneath all the wishy-washy of crystals and mantras, there's a tad more science of the sun and the stars than meets the eye which has to be one of the many whimsical things that brings me back to this 'other' idea of religion.

according to a bunch of math that has to do with my birthday and other numerical figures, it turns out that I am in the "personal year 2" of my 9-year personal cycle but not to be confused with my personal year number which is 5 that means a whole other thing. not something that I ever heard much about until my last tarot/psychic session but something that I'm slowly coming to terms with as it nears its end. birthday on birthday each year will pass and another theme will reign - so I've decided to dive deep into what this year was supposed to entail and what I might be able to accomplish in its final months.

THE 2-YEAR CYCLE DEBRIEFED; Connecting

THE 2 YEAR is a slow journey of connection, partnership, relationship, patience, attention to detail, cooperation, sensitivity, and gradual progress. Time is always short, from birth to death.

Now it is important to listen and compromise. You need to be sensitive to the needs of others.

This will be a slow, but valuable year. This year, you will gradually transform from a stubborn to a sensitive and emotional person.

Personal Year 2 is all about slowing down and appreciating life. You may feel enthused to push yourself, and you may be better inclined to appreciate every gift that life has bestowed upon you. Personal Year 2 is usually a year where our patience and loyalty may be tested, be it in relationships or in careers.

NOTES ON MESS NESS

as someone who doesn't have an ounce of self-control when it comes to slowing down, the idea that this year is supposedly about pacing is astonishing to everybody. 

i couldn't understand during my initial run down on the cycle of years what I was supposedly going to absorb from the conversation. instead, the alternate reality occurred and I aligned the unbecoming of my sanity to the year of endings and conclusions. not that I really needed any symbolic reassurance that the worst year of my life happened on some planned starry schedule but it was great to see that someone else in this ghastly world real or not had my back.

now that time and events have evolved from nine to one to two, we've also had the time to evolve into a giant chaotic pit of mess, which is no surprise to anyone even the stars. 

from delving further into the girl gang antics and finding out more about the bitter rage that women have with the inferior sex, this year of relationships is upheaving the equilibrium that exists inside my unbearable braincells.

here's to the next year of personability and numeral answers